ʻO ke ʻano maoli o ka nalowale ʻana o ka hāpai mua

Ua noi wau i koʻu māmā e lawe mai i nā kāwele kahiko. Hele mai ʻo ia e kōkua, mālama pēpē i kuʻu makahiki he 18, a hana i ka meaʻai. Hele mai ʻo ia e kali.

Ua lawe wau i ka pila i ka pō ma mua, e like me ka ʻōlelo a ke kauka OB-GYN. A hoʻokomo wau i kekahi i loko o kuʻu lua. A laila hele wau i kahi hiamoe. A kali.

ʻO ka pila he RU486 - {textend} ka lā kakahiaka ma hope o ka pila. Ua kauoha ʻia ma hope o kaʻu mau sonograms he nui e hōʻike ana i nā "genetic material" e lana ana i loko o kuʻu kōpū.

E hoʻāʻo ana wau e hāpai. Ua hāpai au. Ua hiki koke nō ia. Ua puka ka IUD Iune 30. Ma ʻAukake, ua hāpai au. Ua hauʻoli mākou. Ua helu au i ka lā kūpono - {textend} ma kahi o ka lā makuahine.

Ua hoʻomaka ka mea i hiki aʻe, ke nānā nei wau i hope i kēia manawa, me kahi ʻano. ʻAʻole kūpono kekahi mea, a ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke ʻōlelo no ke aha.

Akā i ʻelima mau pule, ua maopopo iaʻu. ʻAʻole maopopo iaʻu pehea. Manaʻo wale ʻia nā mea. ʻAʻole wau i haʻi aku i kekahi mea a ua hele au i kahi haukapila kahi e hana ai lākou i nā sonograms manuahi. Ma kēia keʻena lapaʻau, ʻo ka hapa nui o kā lākou hana he ʻōlelo aʻoaʻo a me nā hoʻōkōkō.

I loko o kēia lumi kali, kaumaha ke ea, manaʻo nā helehelena. He ʻōpio ʻōpio. He wahine i kona mau makahiki 30. Kāne, makua, hoa aloha.

He puke kaʻu.

Ua hiki mai koʻu manawa. Hinahina ka papakaumaka. Aia he ʻōpala. Ua hele mai ʻelua mau kānaka i ka makahiki 20. ʻAʻohe mea i maopopo i ka mea a lākou e nānā aku nei.

Mai kaʻu kaʻa i ka wahi kaʻa, ua kāhea wau i kaʻu palekeiki, nāna i hōʻike i kahi hōʻike koko, a ua hana koke wau.

Ua neʻe ke ola. Ua haʻi wau i koʻu makuahine ua hāpai au. Ua haʻi wau i ʻelua o kaʻu mau hoaaloha pili loa. Ua hele wau e hana.

Ma ke awakea Pōʻalima, hele wāwae māua me kaʻu keiki me ka wāwae wāwae ʻole i ka mauʻu i ke kani ʻana o kaʻu kelepona. Ua kāhea ke kikowaena hānau e ʻōlelo i ka hāʻule ʻana o kaʻu pae FSH a ʻaʻole ma kahi a lākou e aneane ʻeono pule e hāpai ana. "E kala mai iaʻu," wahi a ka pale keiki.

"ʻO wau pū kekahi," i ʻōlelo au. "Mahalo."

Nā lā ma hope, ua hōʻoia nā kauka. "Genetic material" ma ka papakaumaka. Ua ʻike wau i ka mea a mākou i ʻike ʻole ai. ʻAʻohe kiko o ka puʻuwai. ʻAʻohe pī iki.

He aha kā mākou hana?

Eia naʻe, ʻaʻole wau i nalo i ka nalo. Pehea mākou e hoʻonā ai i kēia "genetic material" i loko o koʻu kōpū?

“E hoʻāʻo kākou i nā pila.” Pēlā mākou i hana ai. ʻO ka manawa kaʻu e lawe i ka pila i ka pō Pōʻakolu. ʻO ka Pōʻahā koʻu lā hoʻomaha.

I kēlā kakahiaka, ua huhū wau, ua like wau me he pee. Ua haʻalele au i ka lua a neʻe i kahi poho.

Hoʻokahi a me kahi hoʻokuʻu.

Koko mānoanoa. ʻO Gooey A ke kiʻi nei au i nā kāwele kahiko. Ua loaʻa wau iā lākou i ka manawa e hopu i ka ʻelua o ka poepoe - {textend} me he mea lā he papa koko kona. Aia ke koko ma ka papahele paʻa a he kulu ma ke kapeta ʻauʻau beige.

Kali mākou i ke kakahiaka a nui a like nā mea a koʻu kino i hoʻonele ai i ka "genetic material." Me kēlā me kēia hoʻokuʻu, ua manaʻo wau ua kokoke mākou i kēia mea.

Ua like ia me ka loaʻa ʻana o nā manawa āpau no hoʻokahi makahiki i hoʻokahi kakahiaka.

Ma ke koho ʻana ʻo OB-GYN i ka lā aʻe, ua nānā mākou i kahi o nā sonograms. ʻO kekahi "mea genetical" e pili mau ana i koʻu ʻaoʻao.

ʻO wau kekahi o ka 3 pākēneka o nā wahine i hana ʻole RU486.

"He aha kā mākou e hana ai?" Ua nīnau wau.

ʻO ka pane he D a me C. Ua maopopo iaʻu ʻo kēia ka wehewehe ʻana o kekahi poʻe i kahi ʻōpū. Akā ʻaʻole anei mākou i hana i kēlā?

Hoʻopili ke kaʻina hana i ka dilation o ka cervix e hoʻonui a ʻae i nā mea kani i loko o ka kōpū, a me ka curettage - {textend} ʻoki ʻana i nā paia o ka kōpū.

ʻO kekahi Pōʻahā, kahi hana hou. ʻO kēia kahi mea maʻi ma ka haukapila. Ua lohi wau me koʻu māmā. Kuʻu kāne i ke kaʻa. ʻOi loa ka maikaʻi o nā kahu maʻi. Ua noʻonoʻo wau inā manaʻo lākou e hāpai ana wau i kahi ʻōpū, a i ʻole he hānau keiki ʻole.

He USC lanyard kā ke anesthesiologist i kona wā i hele mai ai e kamaʻilio me aʻu. Hoʻomaopopo wau i koʻu wili ʻana i loko o ka lumi a paʻa hau. I koʻu ala ʻana, ua loaʻa iaʻu nā ʻāʻī hau a makemake i nā kākini a me koʻu mau ʻulu polū.

Ua hoʻokele kaʻu kāne iā mākou i ka home ke hoʻolohe nei wau i nā leka uila a me ka hoʻāʻo ʻana ʻaʻole e like me ka loopy.

Ua hala.

"ʻAʻole au hāpai hou," ua haʻi wau i kaʻu mau hoaaloha pili ʻelua, e makaʻala i ʻole e ʻōlelo i ka huaʻōlelo hāʻule.

Kupanaha ka haʻalele ʻana i ka hāpai keiki i haʻalele i ka manawa liʻiliʻi e kanikau. Nui koʻu manaʻo e neʻe i waena o ia: nā wae, nā kaʻina hana, a me nā sonogram. ʻAʻole wau i ʻimi i ka noho mālie a me ke aloha.

ʻAʻole maopopo wau pehea e kūpono ai kēia i koʻu ola. ʻAʻole naʻe wau i hana iki me ia a mālama i kahi huhū i ka hoa i ʻōlelo, “Ua hala kā mākou kaikamahine. ʻO kāu kaikamahine kēlā. ”

Inā hoʻopā ʻia ʻoe i kēlā me kēia ʻano e ka hāpai keiki ʻole, e ʻike i kēia: ʻO ka mea, ua hiki, a he mea nui ia.

ʻAʻole paha i ʻike kou mau hoaaloha a ʻohana paha. A i ʻole ʻaʻole lākou e nīnau. A i ʻole manaʻo paha lākou he mea nui ia. Ua hana.

Hoʻohanohano i kēlā. Kū. Kanikau. Hōʻike. Kākau iho. Māhele. Kamaʻilio. E hāʻawi i ka lā a me ka inoa a me kahi. Ke aʻo nei e hāpai ʻoe lawe mai i kahi nalu o nā manaʻo a me nā mea i manaʻo ʻia.

Ke aʻo nei ʻaʻole ʻoe e lawe mai i kahi nalu nui aʻe. Mai huli aʻe. Mai wikiwiki i ka mea aʻe.

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