Kin na Mania: ʻO ka Bond aʻu e ʻike nei me nā poʻe Bipolar ʻē aʻe ʻaʻole hiki ke wehewehe

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• ʻO ʻoe wale nō
• ʻO ka moʻolelo aʻu e haʻi nei
• ʻO ka ʻaoʻao i luna
• Kaikuaʻana, kaikaina
• Pupule ʻohana

Hoʻopili mākou i nā huahana a mākou e manaʻo nei he pono no kā mākou poʻe heluhelu. Inā kūʻai ʻoe ma o nā loulou i kēia ʻaoʻao, loaʻa iā mākou kahi kōmike liʻiliʻi. Eia kā mākou hana.

Ua neʻe ʻo ia e like me aʻu. ʻO ia ka mea aʻu i ʻike mua ai. Ua kolohe kona mau maka a me kona mau lima i kāna kamaʻilio ʻana - pāʻani, acerbic, digressive.

Ua kamaʻilio mākou i ka hola 2 i hala, kāna hanu i ka hanu ʻole, e ʻū ana me ka manaʻo Lawe hou ʻo ia i kahi kuʻi hou o ka hui a hoʻihoʻi iaʻu i ka moena moe moe, ʻoiai e hiamoe ana kuʻu kaikunāne ma koʻu kuli.

Hoʻokaʻawale nā ​​kaikaina i ka hānau ʻana i kēia ʻano ke hui lākou me he poʻe mākua lā: ke ʻike nei i kahi ʻāpana o ʻoe iho i kekahi ʻē aʻe. ʻO kēia wahine aʻu e kāhea aku ai iā Ella i koʻu ʻano, giddiness, a me ka huhū, no laila ua manaʻo wau ua pili mākou. Pono mākou e kaʻana like i nā ʻāpana.

Ua hele kā mākou kamaʻilio i nā wahi āpau. Mai ka hip hop iā Foucault, Lil Wayne, i ka hoʻoponopono hale paʻahao, ua lālā nā manaʻo o Ella. Ua weliweli kāna mau ʻōlelo. Ua makemake ʻo ia i nā hoʻopaʻapaʻa a koho iā lākou no ka leʻaleʻa, e like me aʻu. I loko o kahi lumi pouli, inā nakinaki nā kukui i kona mau lālā, e hulahula lākou. Pēlā ʻo ia, ma kahi o ka lumi āna i kaʻana like ai me koʻu kaikaina, a ma hope, ma kahi kia i ka lumi o ka pā kula.

Ua hāʻawi ka hoa noho o koʻu kaikunāne iaʻu i ka hoʻomaha noʻu iho. Ua ʻike wau iā Ella e hauʻoli ana, akā māluhiluhi - akā akā, ʻaʻa ʻole, loaʻa. Ua noʻonoʻo wau, makaʻu, inā ʻo kēia ka manaʻo o ka poʻe e pili ana iaʻu. ʻO kekahi o ko Ella mau manaʻo he hyperbolic, kāna mau hana keu, e like me ka hulahula ʻōlohelohe ʻana i ke ʻōmaʻomaʻo o ke koleke a i ʻole ke kī ʻana i nā kaʻa cop. Eia nō naʻe, hiki iā ʻoe ke hilinaʻi iā ia e komo. E pane aku ai.

He manaʻo kona, a i ʻole he manaʻo paha, e pili ana i nā mea āpau. Heluhelu aloha ʻo ia a makaʻu ʻole iā ia iho. Mākēneki ʻo ia.Ua hahau ʻia wau e kuʻu kaikunāne me kona ʻano hiamoe, hana, frat-bro, ua launa maikaʻi me Ella, ʻo ia ka mea hauʻoli, pīhoihoi, a hele pū ʻole.

ʻAʻohe o mākou i ʻike ia pō ua hui wau me Ella ma Princeton, akā i loko o ʻelua mau makahiki e kaʻana like wau a me kekahi mea ʻē aʻe: kahi noho i ka haukapila noʻonoʻo, nā meds, a me kahi hōʻailona a mākou e mālama ai no ke ola.

ʻO ʻoe wale nō

He poʻe mahuka ka poʻe maʻi noʻonoʻo. Ma kahi lōʻihi loa mai ka home, he mea hōʻoluʻolu ke lohe ʻana i kāu ʻōlelo makuahine. Ke hui ka poʻe me ka maʻi bipolar, ʻike mākou i kahi pilina pilikino, kahi pilina. Māhele mākou i kahi ʻeha a me kahi hauʻoli. ʻIke ʻo Ella i ke ahi hoʻomaha hoʻomaha ʻole koʻu home.

Hoʻonani mākou i ka poʻe, a i ʻole hoʻonāukiuki paha mākou iā lākou. ʻO ia ke ala manic-depressive. ʻO ko mākou ʻano pilikino, e like me ka exuberance, drive, a me ka wehe, ʻumeʻume a hoʻokaʻawale i ka manawa hoʻokahi. Hoʻoulu ʻia kekahi e ko mākou hoihoi, ko mākou ʻano lawe pilikia. Hoʻohuli ʻia nā poʻe ʻē aʻe e ka ikehu, ka ego, a i ʻole nā ​​hoʻopaʻapaʻa e hiki ai ke hōʻino i nā ʻahaʻaina ahiahi. Ke inu ʻona nei mākou, a ʻaʻole lawa.

No laila loaʻa iā mākou kahi mehameha maʻamau: ʻo ka paio e hala iā mākou iho. Ka hilahila o ka hoʻāʻo ʻana.

Pepehi pinepine ka poʻe me ka maʻi bipolar iā lākou iho ma mua o ka poʻe olakino. Manaʻo wau ʻaʻole wale kēia ma muli o ka loli o ka naʻau, akā no ka mea pinepine nā manic i hōʻino i ko lākou ola. Inā hana maikaʻi ʻole ʻoe i ka poʻe, ʻaʻole lākou makemake e kokoke iā ʻoe. Hiki iā mākou ke kipaku aku me kā mākou nānā pono ʻole, ko mākou inaina hoʻomanawanui ʻole, a i ʻole ko mākou hoihoi, kēlā egocentric positivity. ʻAʻole ʻoi aku ka hoʻokaʻawale o Manic euphoria ma mua o ke kaumaha. Inā ʻoe e manaʻoʻiʻo i kāu iho charismatic he mirage weliweli ia, maʻalahi ka kānalua i ke aloha. He mehameha kūikawā mākou.

Eia nō naʻe kekahi poʻe - e like me koʻu kaikunāne, he mau hoaaloha me ka maʻi, a me nā wahine aʻu i pili ai - mai noʻonoʻo i ka bipolarity. Ua huki ʻia kēia ʻano kanaka i ke kamaʻilio kūkā, ka ikehu, ka pili e pili ana i ka poʻe me ka maʻi bipolar no ka mea ma mua o kāna kaohi. Kōkua ko mākou ʻano uninhibited i kekahi poʻe i mālama ʻia e wehe. Hoʻopili mākou i kekahi ʻano mellow, a hoʻomaha lākou iā mākou i ka hoʻihoʻi.

Maikaʻi kēia poʻe no kekahi, e like me ka anglerfish a me ka bacteria e mālama mau ana i ka aglow. Loaʻa ka hapalua o ka manic i nā mea e neʻe ana, hoʻopaʻapaʻa i nā hoʻopaʻapaʻa, nā mea hoʻonāukiuki. ʻO ka ʻoluʻolu, ʻoi aku ka hapa o ka hapa e mālama i nā papa i hoʻokumu ʻia i ka honua maoli, ma waho o ka ʻaoʻao Technicolor o kahi manaʻo bipolar.

ʻO ka moʻolelo aʻu e haʻi nei

Ma hope o ke koleke, ua noho au i mau makahiki ma kuaʻāina kuaʻāina o Iapana e aʻo ana i ke kula haʻahaʻa. Ma kahi he ʻumi mau makahiki ma hope mai ma New York, ua loli kahi brunch me kahi hoaaloha pehea wau i ʻike ai i kēlā mau lā.

ʻO ke kāne, e kāhea wau iā ia ʻo Jim, i hana i ka hana like ma Iapana ma mua oʻu, e aʻo ana ma nā kula like. Sempai, Kāhea wau iā ia i ka ʻōlelo Kepanī, ʻo ia hoʻi ke kaikuaʻana. Ua haʻi aku nā haumāna, nā kumu, a me nā kamaʻāina i nā moʻolelo e pili ana iā Jim ma nā wahi a pau aʻu i hele aku ai. He kaao ʻo ia: ʻo ka ʻaha mele mele āna i hana ai, kāna mau pāʻani hoʻomaha, ʻo ka manawa āna i ʻaʻahu ai ʻo Harry Potter no Halloween.

ʻO Jim ka wā e hiki mai ana iaʻu makemake wau e lilo. Ma mua o ka hui ʻana me aʻu, ua ola ʻo ia i kēia ola mōneka i kua'āina Kepani. Ua hoʻopiha ʻo ia i nā puke liʻiliʻi me ke kanji hoʻomaʻamaʻa - lālani ma hope o ka lālani hoʻomanawanui o nā huapalapala. Mālama ʻo ia i kahi papa huaʻōlelo o kēlā me kēia lā ma kahi kāleka papa kuhikuhi i loko o kāna ʻeke. Makemake māua ʻo Jim i ka fiction a me ke mele. Ua hoihoi mākou i ka anime. Ua aʻo mākou ʻelua i ka ʻōlelo Kepanī mai ka wili, ma waena o nā hoe laiki, me ke kōkua mai kā mākou mau haumāna. Ma nā kauhale o Okayama, ua aloha pū mākou a ua haki ka puʻuwai e nā kaikamahine i ulu ʻoi aku ka wikiwiki ma mua o kā mākou.

Ua ikaika mākou, ʻo Jim a me I. He hiki i ke kūpaʻa kūpilikiʻi, hiki iā mākou ke kaʻawale, steely, a me ka cerebral i kahi ala e hōʻoluʻolu i kā mākou pili. Ke pili mākou, ua paʻa loa mākou. Akā iā mākou i loko o ko mākou poʻo, aia mākou ma ka honua mamao, hiki ʻole ke kiʻi ʻia.

Ma ka brunch i kēlā kakahiaka ma Nu Ioka, ua nīnau mau ʻo Jim e pili ana i ka palapala kākau a kuʻu haku. Ua haʻi wau iā ia e kākau ana wau e pili ana i ka lithium, ka lāʻau e mālama ai i ka mania. Ua ʻōlelo au he paʻakai ka lithium, i ʻeli ʻia mai nā mines ma Bolivia, akā ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi o ka hana ma mua o kēlā me kēia lāʻau hoʻoliʻiliʻi ʻano. Ua haʻi wau iā ia pehea ka pīhoihoi o ka manic depression: kahi maʻi kaumaha, maʻi maʻamau i episodic, hoʻi hou, akā, ʻokoʻa hoʻi, hiki ke mālama ʻia. ʻO ka poʻe me ka maʻi noʻonoʻo i ke kūlana kiʻekiʻe loa o ka pepehi kanaka, ke lawe lākou i ka lithium, ʻaʻole hoʻi e hoʻi hou no nā makahiki.

ʻO Jim, i kēia manawa he kākau kākau, hoʻomau i ka ʻume. "He aha ka moʻolelo?" Ua nīnau ʻo ia. "He aha ka moʻolelo?"

"ʻAe," i ʻōlelo au, "ua loaʻa iaʻu kekahi ʻano maʻi o koʻu ʻohana ..."

"No laila ka moʻolelo hea ʻoe e hoʻohana nei?"

"E uku kāua i ka pila," wahi aʻu, "e haʻi wau iā ʻoe ʻoiai mākou e hele wāwae nei."

ʻO ka ʻaoʻao i luna

Ua hoʻomaka ka ʻepekema e nānā i ka maʻi bipolar ma o nā aniani o ke kanaka. Hōʻike ka māhoe a me ka ʻohana i ke kaumaha o ka manic ma kahi o 85 pākēneka hoʻoilina. Akā ʻaʻole ʻike ʻia kahi hoʻololi hoʻokahi i ka helu no ka maʻi. No laila kau pinepine i ka ʻano pilikino: kamaʻilio, hāmama, impulsivity.

Hōʻike pinepine ʻia kēia mau ʻano i nā ʻohana mua loa o ka poʻe me ka maʻi bipolar. He kuhi lākou no ke aha e holo ai nā "gen genes" no ka maʻi i loko o nā ʻohana, a ʻaʻole i huki ʻia e ke koho kūlohelohe. I nā koina kaulike, pono ke ʻano e like me ka hoʻokele, ka ikaika kiʻekiʻe, a me ka noʻonoʻo divergent.

ʻO nā mea kākau ma ka Workshop ʻo Iowa Writers 'Workshop, e like me Kurt Vonnegut, i ʻoi aku ka nui o ka maʻi maʻi ma mua o ka lehulehu, ua ʻike ʻia kahi noiʻi maʻamau. ʻO Bebop nā mea hoʻokani jazz, ʻo Charlie Parker ka mea kaulana loa, Thelonius Monk, a me Charles Mingus, he ʻano maʻi pū kekahi, pinepine i nā maʻi bipolar. (ʻO ka mele a Parker "Relaxin" at the Camarillo "e pili ana i kona noho ʻana ma kahi hale hoʻomalu ma Kaleponi. Ua hoʻopaʻa ʻia lāua me Monk lāua ʻo Mingus i ka haukapila. nā mea kākau, a me nā mea hoʻokani pila me ka maʻi bipolar. ʻO kāna moʻolelo pilikanaka hou, ʻo "Robert Lowell: Ke kau nei i ka muliwai ma ke ahi," e wehewehe ana i nā mea noʻeau a me nā maʻi i ke ola o ka mea haku mele, i hoʻokipa ʻia no ka mania i nā manawa he nui, a aʻo ʻia i nā mele ma Harvard.

ʻAʻole kēia manaʻo he lawe nui ka mania. ʻO ka mea e hoʻonāukiuki ai ka mania he chaos: ka hilinaʻi delusional, ʻaʻole ʻike. Hoʻonui pinepine ka ramble, akā ʻaʻole hoʻonohonoho. Hana ʻia ka hana hana ʻoiai ʻo manic, i koʻu ʻike, ʻo ka hapa nui o ka narcissistic, me ka manaʻo pilikino hewa ʻole a me ka manaʻo mālama ʻole o ka poʻe hoʻolohe. ʻAʻohe hiki ke hoʻopakele ʻia mai ke kolohe.

ʻO ka mea a ka noiʻi e hōʻike nei ʻo ia kekahi o nā mea i kapa ʻia he "ʻano maikaʻi" o ka maʻi bipolar - drive, assertiveness, openness - i ka poʻe me kēia maʻi ke maikaʻi a ma nā lāʻau hoʻi. ʻO lākou ka mea i hoʻoilina i kekahi o nā ʻāpana e hoʻoulu nei i ka manic temperament, akā ʻaʻole lawa ka mea e hoʻonāukiuki ai i nā ʻano o ka huhū a me ka hiamoe ʻole, a me ka hoʻomaha ʻole ʻole e wehewehe ai i ke kaumaha manic ponoʻī.

Kaikuaʻana, kaikaina

"Ke hoʻohenehene nei ʻoe iaʻu," i ʻōlelo ai ʻo Jim, me ka ʻakaʻaka makaʻu, i ke kūʻai ʻana mai iaʻu i kofe i kēlā lā ma Nu Ioka. I ka wā i haʻi mua ai wau i ka nui o ka poʻe hoʻolālā i loaʻa i nā ʻano naʻau, ua kuhi ʻo ia - me kahi smirk ʻaoʻao - hiki iā ia ke haʻi iaʻu i ka nui e pili ana i kāna ʻike. ʻAʻole wau i nīnau he aha kāna manaʻo. Akā i ko mākou hele wāwae ʻana ma kahi o 30 mau poloka i Penn Station mai Bond Street, ua haʻi ʻo ia iaʻu e pili ana i kāna mau makahiki pōhaku i hala.

ʻO ka mea, aia nā hookup me nā hoa wahine. A laila ua hoʻopihapiha nā kāmaʻa i kāna lumi me: nā ʻumi mau pālua hou, nā sneakers pipiʻi. A laila ke kaʻa haʻuki. A me ka inu ʻana. A hāʻule ke kaʻa. A i kēia manawa, i nā mahina i hala iho nei, kaumaha: kahi anhedonia laina pālahalaha i ʻano kamaʻāina e hoʻomaʻalili i koʻu kuamoʻo. Ua ʻike ʻo ia i kahi holomua. Makemake ʻo ia iā ia e lawe i nā meds, i ʻōlelo ʻo ia he bipolar. Ua hōʻole ʻo ia i ka lepili. Kamaʻāina nō hoʻi kēia: Ua ʻalo au i ka lithium no ʻelua mau makahiki. Ua hoʻāʻo wau e haʻi iā ia e maikaʻi ʻo ia.

He mau makahiki ma hope mai, ua lawe ʻia kahi papahana kīwī hou iā Jim i Nu Ioka. Ua noi ʻo ia iaʻu i kahi pāʻani kinipōpō hīnaʻi. Nānā mākou i ka Mets, ʻano, ma luna o nā hotdogs a me nā pia a me nā kamaʻilio mau. Ua maopopo iaʻu ma kāna hui hou ʻana he ʻumikūmālima mau makahiki, ua launa hou ʻo Jim me kekahi hoa papa ma mua. ʻAʻole i liʻuliʻu, pili aloha lāua. ʻAʻole ʻo ia i haʻi iā ia i kinohi ua kanu ʻia ʻo ia i lalo o ke kaumaha. Ua aʻo koke ʻo ia, a makaʻu ʻo ia e haʻalele. Ua kākau wau i nā leka uila iā Jim i loko o kēlā wā, e koi ana iā ia e hopohopo ʻole. "Maopopo iā ia," i koi aku ai, "Aloha mau lākou iā mākou no ka ʻano o mākou, ʻaʻole naʻe."

Ua hāʻawi mai ʻo Jim iaʻu i ka nūhou ma ka pāʻani: ke apo, ka ʻae. Ua paʻi kiʻi wau i kahi melemona ma Iapana. A lana ka manaʻo, i loko nō o kēia, kēlā sempai ua hāʻawi mai iaʻu i kahi hiʻohiʻona o koʻu wā e hiki mai ana.

Pupule ʻohana

ʻO ka ʻike ʻana iā ʻoe iho i kekahi mea ʻē aʻe ka mea maʻamau. Inā loaʻa ʻoe i kahi maʻi bipolar, hiki i kēia ʻano ke keu a keu, no ka mea, ʻo kekahi ʻano āu e ʻike ai hiki ke hoʻokūkū iā ʻoe e like me kahi manamana lima.

Ua hoʻoilina nui ʻia kou pilikino, e like me ka hanana iwi a me ke kiʻekiʻe. ʻO nā ikaika a me nā hewa i hoʻopaʻa ʻia me ia he ʻelua mau ʻaoʻao o hoʻokahi kālā: ʻo ka ʻiʻini i paʻa i ka hopohopo, kahi ʻike e hele mai me ka hilahila ʻole. ʻO ʻoe, e like me mākou, paʻakikī, me nā nāwaliwali huna.

ʻO ka mea e holo i ke koko bipolar ʻaʻole ia he ʻōlelo hōʻino akā he ʻano pilikino. ʻO nā ʻohana me nā helu kiʻekiʻe o ka naʻau a i ʻole nā ​​maʻi psychotic, pinepine, he ʻohana o ka loaʻa kiʻekiʻe, nā kānaka hana. ʻOi aku ka kiʻekiʻe o ka IQ o ka poʻe me ka lehulehu. ʻAʻole kēia e hōʻole i ka ʻeha a me nā suicides i hoʻokumu ʻia e ka maʻi i nā poʻe e pane ʻole i ka lithium, a i ʻole nā ​​mea me nā comorbidities, ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi. ʻAʻole hoʻi e hoʻoliʻiliʻi i ka paio e kū nei i mua o ka laki, e like me aʻu, i ke kala ʻana no kēia manawa. Akā no ka kuhikuhi ʻana i ka maʻi noʻonoʻo, pinepine ʻia, he huahana ma muli o ke ʻano pilikino loa e maikaʻi pinepine.

ʻO ka nui o kā mākou hui pū, ʻo ka mea liʻiliʻi kaʻu e manaʻo ai he mutant. I ke ʻano o ka manaʻo o kaʻu mau hoaaloha, kamaʻilio, a hana, ʻike wau iaʻu iho. ʻAʻole luhi lākou. Hoʻomaha ʻole. Hoʻopili lākou. ʻO ko lākou ʻohana he ʻohana haʻaheo koʻu e lilo i ʻāpana o: hoihoi, hoʻokele, alualu ikaika, mālama nui.

ʻO Taylor Beck kahi mea kākau i hoʻokumu ʻia ma Brooklyn. Ma mua o ka puke pai ʻana, ua hana ʻo ia i loko o nā labs e hoʻopaʻa haʻawina hoʻomanaʻo, hiamoe, moeʻuhane, a ʻelemakule. Kāhea iā ia ma @ taylorbeck216.