Ua nīnauele wau i koʻu mau mākua e pili ana i kaʻu maʻi ʻai

Ua hakakā wau me ka anorexia nervosa a me ka orthorexia no ʻewalu mau makahiki. Ua hoʻomaka kaʻu kaua me ka meaʻai a me koʻu kino ma 14, ma hope koke iho o ka make ʻana o koʻu makuakāne. ʻO ke kaohi ʻana i ka meaʻai (ka nui, ke ʻano, nā calorie) i lilo koke i ala naʻu e manaʻo ai ua kāohi wau i kekahi mea, kekahi mea, i kēia manawa hoʻoluhi loa.

ʻO ka mea hope loa, ua lawe koʻu maʻi ʻai i koʻu ola a pili i koʻu pilina me aʻu wale nō, akā me kaʻu poʻe i aloha ʻia - {textend} kikoʻī koʻu makuahine a me koʻu makuakāne, ka mea i noho pū me aʻu.

He pilina wehe loa wau me koʻu mau mākua, akā ʻaʻole mākou i noho maoli e kamaʻilio e pili ana i kaʻu maʻi ʻai. Ma hope o nā mea āpau, ʻaʻole ia he kamaʻilio pākaukau ʻaina ʻaina (hoʻopaʻi ʻia). A ʻeleʻele loa kēlā ʻāpana o koʻu ola e makemake wau e kamaʻilio e pili ana i nā mea kupaianaha āpau e hana ʻia i koʻu ola i kēia manawa. A ʻo lākou kekahi.

Akā i kēia mau lā, aia wau ma ke kelepona me kaʻu stepdad, ʻo Charlie, a ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia ʻaʻole mākou i kamaʻilio ākea e pili ana i kaʻu maʻi ʻai. Ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia a makemake koʻu makuahine e haʻi i kekahi o kā lākou kuanaʻike i ka makua o ke keiki me ka ʻai pono ʻole.

ʻO ka mea i hoʻomaka ma ke ʻano he ninaninau ua ulu koke i kahi kamaʻilio ākea ākea. Ua nīnau lākou iaʻu i nā nīnau, a ua kahe maikaʻi mākou ma waena o nā kumuhana kamaʻilio. ʻOiai ua hoʻoponopono ʻia ka ninaninau e pōkole loa ana, manaʻo wau e hōʻike ana i ka nui o koʻu mau mākua a me aʻu i ulu pū ai ma o koʻu hoʻi hou ʻana.

Britt: Mahalo iā ʻoukou no ka hana ʻana i kēia. Hoʻomaopopo ʻoe i kekahi o nā manawa mua āu i ʻike ai ua hewa kekahi mea i koʻu pili i ka meaʻai?

Charlie: Ua ʻike wau no ka mea hoʻokahi mea a mākou e kaʻana like ai iā ʻoe a e hele wau e ʻai. ʻO ka ʻōlelo maʻamau, ʻaʻole ia ka mea ʻoi loa o ka meaʻai, a kauoha pinepine mākou i ke ala. No laila, kuhi wau ʻo ia koʻu hōʻailona mua, ke nīnau pinepine wau iā ʻoe, "E, e hele kāua e hopu i kekahi mea," a ʻano huki ʻoe i hope.

Māmā: E ʻōlelo wau ʻaʻole wau i nānā i ka meaʻai. ʻIke nō ua ʻike au i ka hoʻēmi kino, akā ʻo ia ka wā āu e holo nei [keʻa ʻāina]. Ua hele mai ʻo Charlie, ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia, "Manaʻo wau he mea ʻokoʻa kēlā." Hele ʻo ia, “ʻAʻole ʻai ʻo ia me aʻu.”

Britt: He aha kekahi o nā naʻau i kū aʻe no ʻoe? Ma muli o ka pau ʻana o ʻoukou i kēia me aʻu.

Māmā: Hoka.

Charlie: E haʻi wau i ka nele. ʻAʻohe mea ʻeha hou aʻe no ka makua ke ʻike i kā lākou kaikamahine e hana nei i kēia mau mea iā lākou iho a ʻaʻole hiki iā ʻoe ke kāohi iā lākou. Hiki iaʻu ke haʻi iā ʻoe i kā mākou manawa makaʻu loa ke hele ʻoe i ke koleke. Uē nui kou makuahine ... no ka mea ʻaʻole hiki iā mākou ke ʻike iā ʻoe i kēlā me kēia lā.

Britt: A laila ua [morite ka maʻi maʻi] i loko o kahi mea ʻokoʻa loa i ke koleke. E ʻai ana au, akā ke hoʻokapu nei wau i ka mea aʻu e ʻai nei ... maopopo iaʻu he paʻakikī e hoʻomaopopo, no ka mea ʻoi aku ka maʻalahi o ka anorexia i kekahi ala. Ua like ka orthorexia, ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke ʻai i ka meaʻai like i ʻelua mau manawa i hoʻokahi lā, a like, ke hana nei wau i kēia mau lāʻau ʻai a ke hana nei wau i kēia, a he vegan wau ... ʻaʻole ʻike ʻia ʻo Orthorexia ma ke ʻano he he maʻi ʻaʻano luna.

Māmā: ʻAʻole wau e ʻōlelo ua ʻoi aku ka paʻakikī iā mākou i kēlā manawa, like like ia.

Charlie: ʻAʻole, ʻaʻole, ʻaʻole. ʻOi aku ka paʻakikī, a e haʻi wau iā ʻoe no ke aha ... ʻO ka poʻe a mākou i kamaʻilio ai i kēlā manawa i ʻōlelo ai ʻaʻole hiki ke loaʻa nā lula me kāu ʻai ʻana. Ke kiʻi nei ʻoe i kēlā me kēia pāʻina, a inā ʻoe e hele ana i kahi hale ʻaina, hele ʻoe i ka lā ma mua a koho i nā mea āu e makemake ai ...

Māmā: Ke manaʻo nei wau, ua hoʻāʻo maoli mākou e haʻi ʻole iā ʻoe i ka hale ʻaina a mākou e hele wale ana i ...

Charlie: ʻAʻole iā ʻoe kēlā hana.

Māmā: Hiki iā ʻoe ke ʻike i ka maka o ka makaʻu ma kou maka.

Charlie: ʻO Britt, ʻo ia ka manawa a mākou i ʻike maoli ai ʻoi aku kēia ma mua o ka mea āu e ʻai ai a me nā mea āu e ʻai ʻole ai. ʻO ia ka manawa i hoʻomaka ai ke kiko maoli o kēia, ʻo ka ʻāpana paʻakikī loa o kēia. Hiki iā mākou ke ʻike iā ʻoe, ua luhi ʻoe ... a aia i kou mau maka, pēpē. Ke haʻi aku nei wau iā ʻoe i kēia manawa. E maka maka maka ʻoe inā ʻōlelo mākou e hele ana mākou e ʻai i kēlā pō. ʻO wau e ʻōlelo, ua paʻakikī. ʻO kēlā kahi ʻoi loa o kēia.

Māmā: Manaʻo wau ʻo ka mea paʻakikī loa, manaʻo maoli ʻoe ke maikaʻi maoli kāu hana. Manaʻo wau he ʻoi aku ka paʻakikī o ka nānā ʻana i ke ʻano o ka naʻau, e like me, "Manaʻo maoli ʻo ia iā ia kēia i kēia manawa."

Charlie: Manaʻo wau i kēlā manawa hōʻole wale ʻoe i ka ʻike ʻana he maʻi ʻai kāu.

Britt: ʻIke wau ʻaʻole pono, akā nui wau i ka hewa a me ka hilahila a puni ia, ke manaʻo nei wau ua hana wau i kēia mau pilikia i ka ʻohana.

Charlie: E ʻoluʻolu mai manaʻo i ka hewa a i ʻole kekahi mea e like me kēlā. Ma waho loa o kāu kaohi kēlā. Loa.

Britt: Mahalo ... Pehea kou manaʻo i ka hopena o kaʻu ʻai pono ʻole ʻana i loli i ko mākou pilina?

Charlie: E ʻōlelo wau ua nui ka haunaele i ka lewa. Ma kou ʻaoʻao a me kā mākou hoʻi, no ka mea hiki iaʻu ke haʻi aku ua lōʻihi ʻoe. ʻAʻole hiki iā ʻoe ke hoʻopono me mākou, no ka mea ʻaʻole hiki iā ʻoe i kēlā manawa ke hoʻopono me ʻoe iho, maopopo iā ʻoe? No laila ua paʻakikī, a ua hiki iaʻu ke ʻike ua ʻeha ʻoe a ʻehaʻeha ia. Ua ʻeha, OK? Ua ʻeha mākou.

Māmā: Ua like ia me kahi pā liʻiliʻi e noho mau ana ma laila. ʻIke ʻoe, ʻoiai hiki iā ʻoe ke ʻōlelo, "ʻEā, pehea kou lā, pehea kēlā," hiki iā ʻoe ke loaʻa i kahi chitchat liʻiliʻi a i ʻole nā ​​mea ʻē aʻe, akā a laila ua like ia ... aia wale nō ma laila. Hoʻopuni āpau ia, ʻoiaʻiʻo.

Charlie: A ke ʻōlelo wau ua ʻeha, ʻaʻole ʻoe i hana ʻeha iā mākou, ʻĀ?

Britt: Au maopopo, ʻē.

Charlie: ʻEhaʻeha ke ʻike aku iā ʻoe ua ʻeha.

Māmā: Ua manaʻo mua mākou i kēia, “ʻĀ, makemake mākou e hele ʻoe i ke koleke. ʻOi aku ka maikaʻi e ʻōlelo aku ʻaʻole hiki iā ʻoe ke hele a hoʻokau iā ʻoe i kahi e ola ai ʻoe ma mua o ka hoʻouna ʻana iā ʻoe e hele? ” Me he mea lā, ʻaʻole, manaʻo maoli wau e hoʻāʻo ʻo ia ma ka liʻiliʻi, a ke hana nei mākou i kēia. Akā ʻo ka ʻāpana paʻakikī loa ia, makemake nui mākou iā ʻoe e hoʻokau wale i kēia, akā ʻaʻole mākou i makemake e haʻalele iā ʻoe i kēlā manawa kūpono i ke koleke.

Charlie: A i ʻole, inā e hele pū wau me ʻoe i ka makahiki hou a lilo i mau hoa noho.

Britt: Oh ...

Charlie: He ʻōlelo hoʻomākeʻaka kēlā, Britt. ʻAno hoʻomākeʻaka kēlā. ʻAʻole ia ma ka papa.

Britt: ʻO ka manawa noʻu i hoʻololi i nā mea āpau, ʻo ia ka makahiki lua o ke koleke, a ua hele wau i kaʻu mea hānai no ka mea ke lulu nei wau i kēlā mau meaʻai. No laila ʻo wau wale nō, no ʻelua mau lā pololei, haʻalulu wale nō, a ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hiamoe no ka mea e loaʻa wau i kēia mau haʻalulu. ʻAʻole maopopo iaʻu ke kumu ʻo ia ka mea i hana ai iaʻu, akā ʻo ia ka mea i like ai iaʻu, "E kuʻu akua, ke ʻai nei kuʻu kino." Ua like wau, "ʻAʻole hiki iaʻu ke hana hou i kēia." Ua luhi loa ia i kēlā manawa. Luhi loa wau.

Charlie: ʻOiaʻiʻo, manaʻo wau ua hōʻole ʻia ʻoe no ka lōʻihi, a ʻo ia ka manawa aha no ʻoe. A ʻoiai ʻoe i ʻōlelo ua ʻike ʻoe i kēia maʻi ʻai, ʻaʻole pēlā. I kou noʻonoʻo, e ʻōlelo wale ana ʻoe i kēlā, akā ʻaʻole ʻoe i manaʻoʻiʻo ia, ʻike? Akā ʻae, manaʻo wau ʻo ka makaʻu olakino ka mea e pono maoli ai, pono ʻoe e ʻike maoli, OK i kēia manawa ua lilo kēia i pilikia. I kou manawa, ua hāpai ʻoe i kēlā, "Uh, [ʻike koʻu mau mākua e pili ana i kaʻu maʻi ʻai]?"

Britt: Manaʻo wau ua ʻike mau wau ua ʻike ʻolua i ka mea. Manaʻo wau ʻaʻole wau i makemake e lawe i mua, no ka mea ʻaʻole wau i ʻike pehea, inā he manaʻo kēlā.

Māmā: Manaʻo maoli ʻoe ua manaʻoʻiʻo mākou iā ʻoe ke ʻōlelo ʻoe, "ʻĀ, ua ʻai wale wau ma ka hale o Gabby," a i ʻole he aha ... makemake wale wau inā ʻoe i manaʻo maoli e hoʻopunipuni nei iā mākou.

Britt: Me he mea lā he nīnau kāu, no laila ʻaʻole wau i manaʻo ua manaʻo wau e huki ana wau i kekahi ma luna ou. Manaʻo wau he ʻano like ia, pehea ka mamao e hiki ai iaʻu ke pahu i kēia wahaheʻe me ka ʻole o lākou e hoʻi hope iā ia, maopopo iā ʻoe?

Charlie: ʻO nā mea āpau āu i ʻōlelo ai ʻaʻole mākou i manaʻoʻiʻo. Ua hiki i kahi kiko kahi a mākou i manaʻoʻiʻo ʻole ai i kekahi o ia.

Māmā: A ma luna o ia mea, ʻo nā mea āu e ʻai ai, aia koke nō, ʻike ʻoe, "He lāʻau tī kāna."

Charlie: ʻElima-kiʻekiʻe.

Māmā: ʻO wau e ʻōlelo, he mea mau ia. ʻO Hysterical maoli, i kēia manawa ke noʻonoʻo hou ʻoe iā ia.

Charlie: ʻAe, ʻaʻole ia i kēlā manawa.

Māmā: Aʻole.

Charlie: ʻO wau e ʻōlelo ai, e loaʻa paha iā ʻoe kahi mea hoʻomākeʻaka i loko ona, no ka mea, he mea naʻau maoli ia ... He hoʻokūkū chess ia ma waena o mākou a me mākou.

Britt: Pehea i loli ai kou ʻike i nā maʻi ʻai i loko o nā makahiki ʻewalu i hala?

Charlie: ʻO koʻu manaʻo wale nō kēia: ʻo ka ʻāpana ʻino loa e pili ana i kēia maʻi, ma waho o ka mea e hiki ai ke olakino olakino, ʻo ia ka naʻau, nā manaʻo noʻonoʻo. No ka mea e lawe i ka meaʻai mai ka hoʻohālikelike, e lawe i ke aniani mai ka hoʻohālikelike: waiho ʻia ʻoe me kekahi e noʻonoʻo e pili ana i ka meaʻai 24 mau lā i ka lā. A ʻo ka luhi o ka mea e hana ai i ka noʻonoʻo, ʻo ia, manaʻo wau, ʻo ka ʻāpana ʻino loa o ka maʻi āpau.

Māmā: Manaʻo wau e noʻonoʻo ana iā ia ma ke ʻano he mea hōʻalo, manaʻo wau ʻo ia paha ka ʻike nui loa.

Charlie: Ae au. ʻO kāu maʻi ʻai e lilo i ʻāpana o ʻoe, akā ʻaʻole ia e wehewehe iā ʻoe. Wehewehe ʻoe iā ʻoe. No laila, ʻae, ke ʻōlelo nei, ʻaʻole hiki iā ʻoe ke hoʻi hou i ʻeono mau makahiki mai kēia manawa, 10 mau makahiki mai kēia manawa, 30 mau makahiki mai kēia manawa, hiki ke hiki. Akā manaʻo wau ua ʻoi aku kou aʻo ʻia i kēia manawa. Manaʻo wau aia he nui hou aku nā pono hana a me nā kumuwaiwai āu e makemake ai e hoʻohana.

Māmā: Makemake mākou e ola wale ʻoe.

Charlie: ʻO ke kumu holoʻokoʻa a mākou e makemake ai e hana ai me ʻoe no ka mea makemake wale mākou e hele i ka ʻaoʻao o nā mākua o kēia maʻi. Ma muli o ka nui o nā manawa i ka manawa a māua a me kou māmā wale nō i kōkua ʻole ai no ka mea ʻaʻole māua i ʻike i kekahi mea ʻē aʻe e hele nei i kēia, a ʻaʻole mākou i ʻike i ka mea e huli aʻe. No laila, pono mākou e hele hoʻokahi i kēia, a ʻo ka mea wale nō aʻu e ʻōlelo ai, ʻike ʻoe, inā inā e hele ana kekahi mau mākua ʻē aʻe i kēia, e aʻo iā lākou iho a e hele i waho a loaʻa kahi hui kākoʻo na lākou. , no ka mea ʻaʻole kēia he maʻi kaʻawale.

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